Thursday, September 9, 2010

Must Get Hired

I have an interview tomorrow afternoon in Dallas. Specifically off 635/coit. So that will be about a 45 min commute during rush hour. Do I care though. NO because I desperately need a job. I'll drive to Oklahoma if I have to. 7 months of no job is enough. I have to show them that I'm the best person for the job. Yes there is competition for it, but I'm the better person. Just have to make them see that. It's all about timing right and being the perfect fit. Well let this be it.
On a happier note, things with the new guy are good. Even though we have only seen each other twice in the 3 1/2 weeks since we were matched, we have talked, texted or emailed every day. So that's something right. And its good conversation too. There is an ease about this one and something that just makes it feel comfortable. I can be a dork and he actually likes it. Weird. Will get to see him next Wednesday when we go to the Ranger game together. So obviously I'm excited. Good vibes and chicken dance for Staci!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

HIRE ME

3 interviews down. 2 got cancelled. But those 3 were really good. I don't care which one, just someone hire me please. I'm past the point of crazy. I've got bills to pay. Things to do. Being out of work for 7 months, yes 7 months has absolutely made me realize that life is unfair sometimes. I have the God Wants you to Know app on fb and today's message..... that you've been talking to God too much, and not listening enough. Prayer is when you talk to God. Meditation is when you become quiet and listen to God. You've learned how to talk and ask well. Time to learn how to listen and hear, because God has been answering you.
Well Staci...shut up.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Hip Hop Hooray

Hey Ho!! So this week is going to be interesting.  I'm stoked. I'm ready. Hit me. Job interviews lined up. One of them should result in a offer right? It's time. It's time for so many things...job, guy, life. And I got my carpets cleaned today. Whoot! My mind is in so many different directions right now. Just a bunch of gibberish.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

It's just me against the world

 I try to pride myself on being someone who is loyal, to my family, friends, whatever the case may be. If someone sends me a text or calls they obviously need something from me, so its only respectful to acknowledge it and reply. I even check on your out of the blue just to stay in touch.  But I guess not everyone shares this same view. I'm struggling just as much as everyone else.  Hardly do you ever put forth an effort to get out of your own bubble and see that there is more.  Rarely do I have to hear about your problems first before you ask about mine. Just pisses me off that all the attention gets put on the stupid decisions that are made. Nothing is given to those who are really trying. How much more am I going to keep giving until I'm empty? What would you do if I didn't give anymore. What would you do if I stopped. What if my give a damn was busted and I stopped giving a flying fart in space about your problems. You sure as hell don't listen so why should I continue to care. No one cares anymore. You just want to know what crazy thing I'm going to say next is. That's what I think is the only reason why you keep me around....for the laughs. You don't care that every day I cry b/c the feeling of isolation is unbearable.  You have no idea that I'm beat down and that everything hurts. You say that you are there but every now and then you gotta show me that you are.  Do you know how hard it is to be positive each and every day when you are reminded each and every day of what you don't have. I am thankful for what I do have and know its all part of a reason. But it would be nice to see something good every now and then.  Everyone says that my turn is around the corner...I just have to wait for it. Waiting...sweetheart...waiting. While I wait everyone else gets to enjoy their life. Yes I'm jealous. Yes I'm envious. Waiting for my turn to paint the town red. I want to share in your happiness, but not at the expense of getting my nose rubbed in it. Well cheers to you. Don't trip on your ego on the way out the door.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Durabrite Ultra

Have you ever been in line at the grocery store and there aren’t enough cashiers so you call the store’s main number to ask if they can get some more? Well I have. I needed to go to the store. Debated between Kroger and Walmart. Decided to go with Kroger b/c it was closer. Got my basket full of goodies. Well not really goodies b/c I’m doing this no carb thing. Mom has been doing it for a month and has lost 10 lbs. No more dr. pepper. No more bread. Anyway, I get to the checkout register 10 and there is a lady with 4 bags of coupons and a basket full of items. Another lady behind her and then me. There were 4 employees at the one register trying to help the coupon lady. Now I’m not upset with the coupon lady b/c she was just trying to save a dollar. It’s the Kroger employees who made it worse b/c they couldn’t figure out all the coupons that she had. So after standing in line for about 10 min with no relief in side, I decided to call the store. Phone call went like this: “thank you for calling Kroger my name is Wanda how can I help you. (The name of the employee has been changed for protection and really b/c I couldn’t understand what she said) how can I help you. ME: hi I’m standing in line at register 10 and there are 3 other people behind me. Can you get some additional assistance. WANDA: I was on my way over there when I heard the phone ring so I’ll be there in a second. ME: ok Thank you. End conversation. Wanda never showed up, but another clerk did to help. 3 people had checked out with baskets full by the time coupon lady had finished. The morale of the story kids don’t eat lead paint.